When life takes a full turn (to my son Aakarsh)

I learnt not to succumb to the negativity. Instead, just kept soaring high.
With effort I rose above to prove to myself, that nothing was impossible.

Did I need the right genes or the right fortitude?

Nothing mattered now, for you had created the path for me to navigate and search my own Buddha.

Life has no guarantee, but I shall cherish our crazy repartee

I'm trying to change, but to those promises that I broke
I wake up, as if the morning has given me a poke.

With time, you grew to be a man but our bonds still live on.

Today even though our ties are different, you finding your love does not mean our own is gone.

It’s a struggle coping with life being separated from your kids,

But then that’s your life and this is mine.

I do not wish to relive my convoluted nightmare

The drifting of my mind,

Those barriers to my existence have blurred

Freedom, at last .

No one can ever take away your place, nor replace your overpowering love.

For as long as I live, I know you will be holding my spine to keep it upright and see that I get back to where I belong.

“Fall seven times, stand up eight.”

My attitude , just like anyone else would be distinctive in different circumstances.

But when a health related calamity stuck my daughter, it over engulfed me.

It was like a stereotypical repetition of my own fitness conditions. It is almost impossible to transcend the laws of nature, but then in that given setting ,  I had to find a solution, not just concerning my daughter’s health but also bring peace to my psyche.

I had survived things that were worse than what I was going through now and I knew that if I had survived my past , nothing or no one could stop me. I had to be stronger than what I thought myself to be.

I had an opportunity to take control of my life by the decisions I made.

I had been a follower of Buddhist philosophy for the past some years and the only quick fix to my daughter’s agony seemed to lie in relying on my deep faith towards my Buddhist practice. So I started to chant to bring out the best in her, trying to banish the negative forces that were trying to traumatize her. Taking responsibility of being a mother gave me the power to be exactly where I wanted to be.  I had to figure out what I needed to do to cope with tough times. I was not going to let any troubles knock me down.

Realizing that I could not face this issue alone , I decided to be upfront with friends and colleagues about what I was going through. My friends knew that  I had managed to push through hard times, and they were much more willing to put their necks out for me to help me thrive. Together we chanted sending strong energy forces towards my daughter. Since chiIdhood I had been taught the power of combined prayers and the reports of my daughter, although not exactly perfect ,saved her from many more complexities.

I had learnt to trust those who helped to relieve the gloom of my dark hours than those who are so ready to enjoy with me the sunshine of my prosperity.”

 “anything that doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” really did ring true !