Conscientious Awakening !

Sometimes I wish I were able to win others over to my way of life and thought processes. My convictions were lofty and noble with a willingness to serve. At one time(2004) I had begun to realize that my long standing, coping mechanisms were failing me and that the denial of His illness in which I had operated for nearly 5 years of my life, were causing more damage than preventing it.
My efforts to handle the situation were many times met with derision. I knew I had to delve too deep to keep up my spirits and get my emotional rejuvenation. It would be a worthwhile endeavour. There were skirmishes and altercations but I held on to myself. My bond with my inner self cannot be deciphered in words but my loud conversation with the recesses of heart gave me a life’s lesson of humility and humour.

Now I had a hidden optimism like a blind man talking about the powers of colours. It was like saying that” Dying is a very hard way to know about life.”

Unhappy is the women who awakens from youth’s ignorance to find herself in the house of a man who showers her with gifts and riches and clothes her with generosity, yet is unable to touch her heart with the living flame of love nor satisfy her spirits with the divine wine that should flow from a man’s eyes into a woman’s heart.

Let all find this burgeoning romance and live in the essence of LOVE.

बीते हुए कल में सिर्फ यादें होती हैं , सपने नहीं ||

तुम्हारी  साँस से निकला हुआ धुआं हमारे दिल को छू रहा है ,

तड़प तुमसे शुरू हुई, तो हम रो रो कर किसे रुला रहे हैं ,

तुम्हारी पलको  से निकली हुई शबनम ,हमारी आखों में बस गयी ,

वो चाहत भरी आहें तुम्हारी,  सुनी हमने अपने गुलिस्तां में ,

और जिंदगी हमारी खुशनुमा हो गयी ||